Apr
18
2010
There are times when our experiences overwhelm us. When what we face and experience feels like more than we can handle. A couple weeks ago I had a strong feeling to write about the healing that had taken place for me this past year after the end of my love relationship. When I wrote my previous post spirit gave me about two good hours to soak up a feeling of having really made progress in my healing and then WHAM, I got slammed with another wave of loss and pain.
I was stunned to learn this man, who I had loved, had married the previous day. He didn’t even have enough respect for me to tell me himself. Does that surprise me, yes and no. Yes, because I expected more from a man who professed at one time to love me. I would have expected a basic respect for the relationship we shared. Especially given that it only ended one year ago.
In retrospect there were times in our relationship when I felt he didn’t know how to respect a woman fully. When I felt disrespected and told him that. In that realization, I’m sad and angry. It makes me sad to realize he didn’t learn from the mistakes. Respect is not negotiable. It was his responsibility to tell me himself that he was getting married.
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Apr
14
2010

“If they knew better, they’d do better.”
This quote comes from Reverend Shelia Blanco Pedrosa’s sermon at Harmony Church
Apr
09
2010
“A ship in the harbor is safe, but after a while the bottom rots out.”
Anonymous
“That can happen if we stay too long in our safe zone. I begin to “rot.” Oh, just little indicators. A pound here or there goes on. A negative way of thinking begins to take root in my brain. Getting the ship out of the harbor is HARD WORK!! (Just go to any major pier.) But the pay off is fantastic.”
Susan Lewis Lally
Mar
27
2010

One year ago this month my love relationship ended. I felt like my heart was ripped out and shredded, it happened suddenly, painfully and with virtually no warning. What made it even more painful was that just sixteen days before it ended, the man I loved finally told me he loved me. He said he loved me and couldn’t imagine his life without me. For one amazing week I felt so loved, so treasured. He touched me differently, looked at me more lovingly.
Life was so beautiful, I felt like I’d been given such a gift, my heart overflowed with absolute joy, with love. Just looking at him brought me the most intense pleasure and brought my deepest feelings of love to the surface. I felt so blessed, so happy. Within a week I could feel his fear. I believe it was fear over what I’d expect, now knowing he loved me. I just wanted to bask in his love, to share my heart and soul with him and treasure every single second of our life.
Sixteen days after telling me he loved me, he abruptly ended our relationship. I was devestated, shocked and stunned. We’d been through so much in fourteen months. We’d faced much together; a tremendous family crisis, health issues, his son’s hospitalizations. There had been much good. There had been many sweet, tender, exquisite moments and some really dark, painful, challenging moments. His fears and concerns had surfaced over and over in the fourteen months, making him break away for several days at a time, deciding if he wanted to be a part of my life. I’d had more than enough of the indecision. I thought at last with his admission of loving me, we had moved beyond the fears, beyond the uncertainty. I thought we were on our way to a life together. In no way did I ever imagine he would freak out in fear and end our relationship.
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Mar
26
2010

One year ago this month my love relationship ended. I felt like my heart was ripped out and shredded, it happened suddenly, painfully and with virtually no warning. What made it even more painful was that just sixteen days before it ended, the man I loved finally told me he loved me. He said he loved me and couldn’t imagine his life without me. For one amazing week I felt so loved, so treasured. He touched me differently, looked at me more lovingly.
Life was so beautiful, I felt like I’d been given such a gift, my heart overflowed with absolute joy, with love. Just looking at him brought me the most intense pleasure and brought my deepest feelings of love to the surface. I felt so blessed, so happy. Within a week I could feel his fear. I believe it was fear over what I’d expect, now knowing he loved me. I just wanted to bask in his love, to share my heart and soul with him and treasure every single second of our life.
Sixteen days after telling me he loved me, he abruptly ended our relationship. I was devestated, shocked and stunned. We’d been through so much in fourteen months. We’d faced much together; a tremendous family crisis, health issues, his son’s hospitalizations. There had been much good. There had been many sweet, tender, exquisite moments and some really dark, painful, challenging moments. His fears and concerns had surfaced over and over in the fourteen months, making him break away for several days at a time, deciding if he wanted to be a part of my life. I’d had more than enough of the indecision. I thought at last with his admission of loving me, we had moved beyond the fears, beyond the uncertainty. I thought we were on our way to a life together. In no way did I ever imagine he would freak out in fear and end our relationship.
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Mar
18
2010
This is a wonderful book that allows people to read more about regression therapy and experience Brian’s knowledge on the subject. The book comes with a Cd so you have the opportunity to listen to Brian Weiss walk you through relaxation and regression exercises in the quiet of your home.
Mar
12
2010

This weeks quote comes from a book I love by Joan Anderson. She has written several books about her journey of self discovery.
Such is my morning ritual, nothing terribly complicated unless I’ve forgotten to bring logs in from the woodpile the night before. I’m deep into my time-out season of life, where it seems best to be actively passive, involved in little, aware of much. Instinct told me to take myself away and look at all the unwrapped gifts nature has to offer. The natural world is hibernating and so am I.
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Mar
03
2010

“If you want to be loved, be loving.”
Dr. Norris Chumley
Feb
28
2010
Hawaii is one of my favorite places on earth and the Big Island of Hawaii holds a special kind of magic for me. With worries the last couple days of Tsunami warnings my thoughts have been on Hawaii’s islands and my friends who live there. So this post is for each of you; may the islands remain safe and the spirit of Aloha surround each of you.
Feb
19
2010

I’ve always been in the right place at the right time. Of course I steered myself there.
Bob Hope